Kara-Leah Grant gets up close & personal about life on and off the yoga mat in her long-running yoga blog, Musings from the Mat.

Here We Go Again: Embracing Deep Emotional Processing

Everything is process, and sometimes we need to turn away from life and into ourselves.

by Kara-Leah Grant I felt it when my alarm went off on Monday morning a few weeks back. I was not ready to get out of bed. Yes, I was tired, after a big weekend on the road with my son, but this not wanting to rise was deeper than that. I did rise though, and like every morning for the last 154 days, I sat and did my Tantra Meditation. The morning unfolded as it always does, getting my son ready for school and myself ready for a day of work but there was a tugging within. A part of me … [Read more...]

I Give Up

I give up. An act of surrender

by Kara-Leah Grant I just wrote some 700 words and I realised that I've been telling the same damn story on this website for the past five years. A story of struggling to earn money through teaching yoga and writing. And now, I'm dropping the story and simply saying: I give up. I've had enough. I don't care anymore. I'm going to stop trying to earn a living from writing and teaching. Oh, I won't stop writing, nor will I stop teaching. These things I will continue to do, always and … [Read more...]

How to Prevent the Practicalities Getting in the Way of Your Dreams

Get clear on your dreams and then take action. You will be supported.

by Kara-Leah Grant Over the past decade I've become skilled at working with the unconscious and that which holds us back from realising our dreams. I'm adept at identifying something I would like to experience, and then making it happen. I wanted to write and publish a book. I've now written and published two. I had a dream of teaching Yoga Trance Dance with a live DJ rocking it behind me, and I'm now part of Yoga Rhythms with fellow yoga teacher, DJ and Goddess Rire. I dreamt of … [Read more...]

So that’s what Brahmacharya is all about. Containing my Inner Vamp

Learning to stand my ground and contain my energy, opening only on my terms.

by Kara-Leah Grant This New Year’s Eve was a watershed for me. For the first time in my life, I tamed the wild demon of my sexuality. Never have I felt more powerful or more in integrity, and that sense of power and integrity has since spun out, infusing every element of my being. I was at a five day festival and in the company of an extraordinarily sexy man. The connection between us was humming and thick and a mere sideways glance was enough to bring on dry mouth and heart palpitations. And … [Read more...]

When the Price of Beauty and Presence is Sadness

Beauty is all around us

By Kara-Leah Grant, Musings from the Mat Yesterday we got home from six days away - my son with his father, and me in Napier teaching yoga classes and workshops. I love being on the road, catching up with the many friends I have around the country, teaching at a variety of studios, sharing my passion for yoga in workshops. I love home too but when I'm at home, I'm reminded of the home I don't have, the life I'm not leading. In that life I'm coming home to a man I love, who loves me. … [Read more...]

How I Took Responsibility for My Toxic Relationship & Found Forgiveness

Toxic relationship article

by Kara-Leah Grant, Musings from the Mat Recently, while choosing photos to put in a Facebook album celebrating my son's fifth birthday, I came across a series of photos that his father and I had taken of ourselves one month before I finally left him. I paused, and looked at us - the happy and in-love us, the good side, the side that kept me a destructive and difficult relationship for nearly four years - and I was grateful I hadn’t deleted the photos as I so nearly did a few months after we … [Read more...]

There is No Space for Me. A Short Journey into Depression

Journey into depression

by Kara-Leah Grant On Sunday afternoon, lying on the grass outside under fluffy white clouds and a lazy blue sky, I felt the snaky tendrils of depression slither into my heart and settle in my being. One moment, everything was as it was. The next, I felt a heaviness of being, a reluctance to move or act or even be, a dragging at my insides, a rising of emotion. Usually the arrival of depression is not so noticeable. It sneaks up on me and I'm not aware until it's taken me down and I'm … [Read more...]

How Wanderlust Helped Me Become the Best Yoga Teacher

What does it take to be the best yoga teacher you can be?

by Kara-Leah Grant And by that I mean the best yoga teacher I can be, not the best yoga teacher in the world. :-) Yes, the four days of Wanderlust were the best four days of my life. It's my ideal way to spend time - hanging in community surrounded by literally hundreds of heart-open people, practicing yoga, listening to music, dancing, eating amazing food and spending time in nature. Oh, and having the privilege of speaking and teaching too. Last year, watching the teachers deliver … [Read more...]

How to Break a Pattern of Attracting Emotionally Unavailable Men

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by Kara-Leah Grant It began with Ana Forrest's class Tracking Transformation at midday on Thursday, the first day of Wanderlust Great Lake Taupo. I was wary of taking her class that afternoon as I was doing a Speakeasy at 4:30pm and Ana has a reputation for breaking people open. However, it was my only chance to make one of her classes so I took the risk. Early in class, Ana had us scan through our body, tracking sensation, and seeing what was going on. We were instructed to choose a part … [Read more...]

Reflections on Teaching the Worst Yoga Class of My Life


by Kara-Leah Grant On Saturday I taught my first yoga class in five weeks, as it's summer holidays here and I've been doing just that - holidaying. Possibly it wasn't prudent to take so much time off teaching when I've got a major festival within a week - i.e. Wanderlust. Although as I've been on a Forty Day Practice, my asana practice is stronger than it's ever been. However it turns out a strong asana practice doesn't necessarily make me a stronger teacher. I turned up on Saturday … [Read more...]