by Lucinda Staniland
I’m a perfectionist. I love getting things exactly right. So when I got interested in meditation, I had a lot of questions about how I should be doing it: How long should I meditate for? Eyes open or closed? Should I focus on the breath or chant a mantra? Visualise chakras or empty my mind completely? I tried all these things. But somehow, no matter what I did, I felt like I was never quite getting it right.
Meditation always felt like hard work to me.
It was uncomfortable; It particularly exacerbated the tension in my neck, shoulders and back, and often it left me feeling anxious, scattered and cut off from my body. But meditation is supposed to be hard, right?
I meditated like this for years. I did get something out of it: little glimpses of stillness and peace in my mind and body; a growing capacity to simply be with my experience. But at the end of the day, my meditation practice often felt like ticking a box and nothing more.
It was nothing like my asana practice. Doing asana was a reward in itself, a rich, full and enlivening experience. When I was doing asana I had glimpses of what it felt like to be fully embodied. I was able to sense, work with and release tension and blockages. Asana helped me to feel alive in my body and my humanity; Meditation made me feel dull and deadened.
Then I came across a startling and simple idea that revolutionized my meditation practice.
The idea was this: That it’s OK to meditate lying down.
Yup. Lying down to meditate is a legitimate approach. It’s not ‘cheating’, and it’s not just for the old and the infirm. In fact, for those of us who come to yoga or spiritual practice cut-off from our bodies (read: most of us) lying down to meditate might just be the best way into meditation.
I came across this radical idea in Touching Enlightenment: Finding Realization in the Body, a book written by Tibetan Buddhist teacher Reggie Ray. He says,
“When we lie down we assume the posture of the infant, supine and relaxed, but open, awake, and alert – and intensely ready to learn… When we lie down, we can move through the relaxation and the letting go to discover the full range of possibilities for learning about our body and developing our awareness.”
Since I started meditating in this way, my meditation practice has undergone a complete transformation.
I love meditating lying down. When I lie down to meditate my body immediately opens, and my mind opens too. I’m able to bring a much greater awareness to the practice. The tension in my back and shoulders is gone. My meditation practice actually helps to release the tension, rather than making it worse. I don’t fall asleep when meditating in this way; I feel awake, very relaxed and very present in my body. I meditate every day, and I look forward to it.
So why isn’t it more common to meditate like this? Why had no one suggested it to me before? I should be clear, I don’t think there is anything inherently wrong with sitting meditation. Only that it wasn’t working for me, and therefore perhaps won’t work, at least initially, for all of us modern-day human beings.
Our meditating ancestors lived very different lives to us. They were much more present in their bodies, they had to be. But we modern-day humans, with our sedentary lifestyles, desk jobs, high stress levels, processed food, and constant information and technology overload, tend to live quite disembodied and disconnected lives.
When we begin with upright meditation, this practice can continue and perhaps even increase our disconnection from our body.
Our egos are so strong and our connection with our bodies so weak that upright meditation becomes just another way in which we deny the needs and experience of our body in service of the goals of our ego.
This might also explain the current popularity of asana, often to the detriment of the other aspects of yoga, including meditation. But perhaps it’s not just that we’re obsessed with bodies and the material world. Perhaps there is a deeper wisdom at play, an intuition that re-connecting with the body is an essential step for proceeding with any kind of spiritual practice.
Donna Farhi, one of my favourite contemporary yoga teachers, says of asana:
“The emphasis on asana is specific to the age in which we live in, for we live in a time of extreme dissociation from bodily experience… This limb of yoga practice reattaches us to our body. In reattaching ourselves to our body we reattach ourselves to the responsibility of living a life guided by the undeniable wisdom of our body.”
Lying down to meditate isn’t the end of the story. Sitting meditation is still my end goal. There’s a reason why it’s the classic form of meditation. Reggie Ray says:
“Having really experienced what it is like to be somatically full present, relaxed, awake and aware in the lying down mode, we can then sit back up in our more adult mode. Now that that the adult self is reactivated through the upright posture, we become much more aware of how we depart from the open state that is possible for us -discovered in the lying down mode – and literally freeze and eventually numb out. Moving back and forth… we gradually learn how to be in our adult mode of posture and perhaps even engagement, while remaining within the lying down possibilities of openness, alertness, and unconditional awareness.”
But while sitting meditation is where I’m headed, I’m in no rush to get there. I want to meditate upright with the full consent and involvement of my body, not just because my ego thinks that I should. ‘Perfect meditator’ is a box that I don’t need to tick.
So yes, I am the yogi who meditates lying on the floor under a pile of blankets (or my sleeping bag if it’s really cold). I love my meditation practice, and I love that I love my meditation practice.
Will I always meditate in this way? Maybe not. Does it serve me at this moment? Yes! And that’s what my yoga practice is all about, going beyond ‘right’ and ‘wrong’, and discerning what I need in this moment. It’s usually not what I expected.
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